Inspired to ramble

Why do I suddenly feel inspired to ramble again? Why does the flow of words either cease entirely, or come at a rush? I'm afraid I'll never quite understand the artsy side of my personality. I seem to be either creating like mad, or fighting depression. One invigorates and fills me, the other leaves me listless and empty. It's easy to catch myself wondering why I can't be "normal". Why I can't be more even keel. Why I can't be more... solid... stable... unmoving. But I guess these seemingly ridiculous emotional ups and downs are part of God's purposes and plans for my life. As Bro. Graves said not long ago, the momentum you went down with is the same momentum that will push you up - into those creative phases. If you fight the momentum it works against you. If you realize what's happening, and ride the wave, you will be propelled into MORE creativity, MORE fulfillment, MORE ways for God to use that artsy creative stuff. Ever since he said that, I've tried to be more aware of what God was doing, and what He could do in the future - if I can learn the ride the wave. So. Instead of fretting over those periods of silence when the words I wish for vanish, I'm resting in knowing that God can prepare me in down times for the rush of words in the creative times. But regardless of where I'm at on the wave, I want God to be pleased with me, to be able to use me... and I want to be full of HIS words. And I want to be available for Him to speak His words through me.